hahax.. this afternoon quite touched by my mom.. lolx.. like have beem forever.. she started picking up real estate recently to try to comm out with the money for my studies las.. cox my stubborn father do not wan to sell the house.. lolx.. he ar.. like small kids like tat.. *shake head.. ya saying about my mom she said she going to push and sell 3 houses every month with an extra income of 10k las.. then 2 years about 200k liao.. haax.. think is not that ez to keep it up that way las.. but ya she gonna try.. not like my father.. still have the tot of buying new car.. tiaox.. oh well jux hope everything goes well las.. but i know my father las.. he never use his big brain to think before talking de.. and never plan or ponder over stuff except for his work stuff.. lucky he got use his brains in work.. think he uses it rather good to climb to his position now.. hahax.. hmmm.. went driving today.. got a lot to say about that 'good' instructor.. no doubts that he is doing his job well.. but i kinda dislike his nagging.. asking me about my basic theory stuff which i like threw it eons ago las.. hahax.. like wad are the 3 shapes of signboards.. wad does each of them means.. oh god.. spare me las.. hahax.. then later got the procedure of checking blindspots and stuff.. he say i know how to drive.. that is only operating a car and not driving a car.. then later he say micheal schumacher indeed is a fantastic driver but he is not a safe driver.. ask him to take the TP test sure fail de.. wahahaha.. kinda true las.. but it is like argh.. haax.. okie las.. sianx liao.. tml i am so free.. nothing to do.. so any dates?? lolx..
[Zen] believed today at 9:57 PM
hey im back again from camp.. haax.. booked out in civi today but is kiida crapx.. cox i went home straight.. dun make ani diff.. jux that i took bus back rather than the usual pick up from my parents.. hahax.. hmmm.. long time never hear from ash already.. wondering how is she doing.. the the cue i got is her msn nick which is still currently monday blues.. -_-' so long ago already.. hmmm.. my father took my com to work.. hates it when he does that cox always there will be prob when he returns to me.. argh.. this time is something that i cant solve also.. dunno y my desktop looks a bit stretched.. hmmm.. tried to ammend it but it still looks the same.. hmmm.. but we must share our stuff and not to be selfish so ya.. y i need such a perfect piece of equipment too.. hahax.. i have excuse mask for 2 weeks!!! hahax.. cox after that day of tough exercise, in the suit for bout 2 hrs plus plus.. my face bleed a little.. think too dry le.. and when you run the mask rub against my face then bleed los.. 2 weeks of excuse mask means that i not participating in NDP liao.. haix... okie los.. take a rest.. next week also full of mask activities.. all i cannot take part.. hope my face will recover to perfect complexion soon.. heex.. vain lehx.. d: kinda worried how she is doing.. hmmm.. even the e mail sze jia send me about dec babies is quite true.. that i will take a long time to recover from a hurtful relationship.. hahax.. dunno las.. think it will persist till i leave this country.. mayb i go melb even worse.. she's there!!!! wahahahax.. must be sure i wan to go there not cox of her.. haax...if not dun go better.. hmmm... had steamboat with my platoon to day.. quite nice las.. jux that i did not eat much.. no much appetite lehx.. hahax.. jux recovered from a fever yesterday.. haax.. sianx.. think i gonna jux slack until i fall asleep.. heex.. nitex peepx..
[Zen] believed today at 12:54 AM
jux watch click the movie.. about the remote control that can bring you everywhere.. it onli can bring you to the future but not the pass.. so when you pass to the future you cant go back.. hmmm.. you onli can view wad you did in the past.. haix.. y must everything of me still associate to her.. is like i watch this movie i think of her.. like i cant go back to the past.. i cant change the past.. haix.. she is so deeply rooted in my life.. but i know that there isnt any chance between us anymore as all of us changes.. hmmm.. quite a touching show though it is fiction.. quite like it.. haax.. went back to st pats today.. when i stand in front of mother mary and pray today.. i did not know wad to say.. hahax.. is wierd that when you are actualli there you dun know wad to say.. sianx.. think i gotta get a life.. a new life.. in order to carry on.. hmmm.. still hope she is happi there.. :)
[Zen] believed today at 2:56 AM
haiya.. got accepted to mel u le.. woohoo.. veri excited cox that is where i realli wanna go.. monash is jux like a back up for me.. haax.. and not onli that wor.. they offer me engineering (chemical and biomolecular).. realli is omg.. so nice.. i realli wanted that course b4 A levels even started las.. like aiming for it.. but is like 200k for 4 years las.. think my parents regret buying a house in genting which cost like 150k in the past las.. now is onli worth like 60k le.. less than half wor.. i dunno lehx.. my mum is working so hard to let me go and study.. the onli thing i can do is to encourage her los and tell her if realli cant afford then never mind las.. haax.. this is fate los.. hmmm.. but if i realli have the oppotunity to go i will make full use of it.. paste a big banner in front of my room.. your parents worked so hard for you to be here.. make full use of it!!! whahaha.. think so far le.. now gotta calculate and research about it los.. hmmm.. actually ash could gimme all the info i need cox she is there.. but i kinda break contact with her after that stupid incident las.. so ya.. fiid myself los.. and now i must make my mind clear that it is not bcox of her that i wan to go there.. if not i realli let down my parents.. they try so hard for me and i go there bcox of a girl.. o0 thats sad man.. haax.. tml going to IDP to ask them to send my IELPS results to mel u then they will send a full acceptance letter.. haix.. but they got state in the letter.. this offer will remain open onli as long as there are places still available in the course offered above.. so if i realli made up my mind then must go pay the tuition fees le los.. to earn back the 200kin 6 years, i must have a job of having 2777bucks per month los.. so hope that i can have such a job.. according to the career guide las.. a chem engineer there has a pay of average 3000 bucks per month.. if i can get it los.. haax.. so thats the question.. and if i go there then will be the same uni as ash.. will i be affected?? sianx.. dunno lehx.. veri hard to say in the future.. mayb breaking contact now is good las.. give me time to forget her.. haax.. so ya.. later got concert in st pats.. ms siva is back from perth and got her master's degree in councilling le.. wahx.. later go talk to her los.. also dunno how is she le.. she always give good advises.. haax.. actualli the thing that i aspire to do is biomedical engineering.. but i think i do not have the talent and ability to do it los.. hahax.. monash offer me biomed science and mel u offer me engineering.. hahax.. i onli have the ability to do half of it.. hahax.. i like engineering more.. heex.. and is chem and bio engine los.. wooo.. mayb this excitement is jux temporary like si hua and her fireworks.. hahax.. thats funny.. d: okie las.. gotta go shower and go pei that gab go buy things.. then go njd le.. haax..
bewildered!!
[Zen] believed today at 12:53 PM
hahax.. im back again from a dreaded week.. ran 15km las.. whole body is like breaking le.. lolx.. got my cbr badge also for this week.. think my life is not bad las.. hahax.. but everytime whem im at home.. i will be thinking of her again.. why lehx.. haiyo.. hahax.. the more you dun wan to think about it it keeps on poping out los.. its been like so many months le las.. hahax.. quite sad that i still cant forget although i know that there is no hope.. dotx.. even my body so breaking also cant sleep cox thinking of her.. hahax.. super wierd rite.. haax.. there are always many whys in my head.. why from the day she break up to now keep whying?? mayb somethings jux have no answers and solution bahx.. cox im not as intelligent as god.. :D haax.. gonna eat le.. sianx..
[Zen] believed today at 7:37 PM
sianx.. is book in time again after such a long break.. hahax.. hope there is jux 1 more day but this day wun come las.. hahax.. hmmm.. also nvr do much this long break.. onli make ash ignore me now mayb.. hahax.. oh well.. sadx las.. this coming week a lot of things to do.. i dun wan!!! argh.. hope can faster finish.. haix.. o ya.. pple say my blog veri gal.. okie las.. fine next week change.. d: onli takes like at most 30mins to find and change.. i'll change to a MAN one.. wahahahax.. bye peepx..
[Zen] believed today at 5:43 PM
hey guys.. i deleted the last blog cox of some misunderstandings.. hahax.. this 1 looks much nicer ritex.. d: haiya.. that day ash msg me on msn saying that i put "her" name on my previous blog.. she asked me kindly to detete "her" name.. but i kinda worked out and decided to delete it once and for all.. hahax.. then she deleted her's too.. which i still dun understand y.. hmmm.. oh well.. msg her on the phone said im sorry of being too harsh ytd le.. then jux now i msg her on msn but she ignored me as usual.. lolx.. nvrmind then.. at least i apologied le.. haax.. feels good to help si hua in some way today.. stating the facts for her and let her sort her mind out.. relationships are never smooth going forever de.. so must treasure them man.. hahax.. but i realise that no matter how you treasure, time is always against your will.. thats wad god made mahx.. but the fact that we are jux temporarily on earth to get ready ourselves for eternal life.. so y worry able the time wasted here.. he gave me everyday with purposes.. if not there is no reason for him to create me in the first place.. :D this might sounds crapx to some but ya if you believe in god, this is wad you should believe and have faith in.. lolx.. wooooo.. tml driving again.. hope got more exciting stuff.. rather then the boring routine drills.. haax..
[Zen] believed today at 12:56 AM
